My mom and i were texting this morning and as i was talking to her about the things that have been happening to me as i move forward with deliberance in life she text me this “Cant wait to have you back.” This hit me hard. Where did i go? I was submerged in pessimism, depression,...

Talking to Jer until late mornings we tend to talk about everything….sometimes superficial conversations about ice-cream and guns and others its about things that really matter and the other night he hit on a thought i had never really considered until now. We were talking about how the...

I just wanted to post a tad bit about why i no longer take comments. i asked the haters to exit from reading my blog…but thinking about it realized that the amount of happiness that i have is hated and envied by those that dont have it…and then i get the hate mail. when you take...

I love this little monkey! he is my reason and my everything. i love thinking about how greatly he is blessed from my decision to follow my answers to my prayers and how amazing his life is becoming due to the blessings coming from being brave enough to follow my bliss. and to top it off its...

So this is the follow up to yesterdays post…. looking at my almost spotless rooms i think… WHAT DID I DO??? Because really, if you think about it, its when things are going smoothly that more stuff happens almost as if the world is testing you. Things mess up…get messy, and...

Taking down christmas today and trying to get the home back into HOME order….anyone else end up with THIS: Dont be too appauled. this will be gone by morning. And truly it takes ONE day! lol BUT… it hit me as i was taking down the tree that this is my life. This is ALL our lives....

Don’t judge me by my past, i don’t live there anymore Thinking about this post for a while now. Since the last one about how to let our boys grow up to be men. I watched this movie:  and was REALLY impressed with the vision (pun intended) that it had. it was about a life where...

Thinking a lot about this….its not JUST society stripping the needs/wants for boys to grow into men, its us moms. Looking at some of the boy-men that i know i think…how? Were you not raised with a mother AND a father? Didn’t this man show you how to work? How to support a...

SOOOOOOOOOO cute! it was a blast shooting this boise family! they have become such great friends of mine over the years and i LOVED seeing the kiddos so big and chatty! here is just a peek ...

Its calm in my house. John has Cooper today. I wont see him until 630. I dont know how i feel about him being gone but the time is invaluable for me to process, clean, work…BREATHE I cannot breathe lately and yet i am breathing stronger than ever before Last night i broke again I...

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