I feel like i am at a precipice in life in so many ways. I feel like God has his hands wrapped around my life now that i have fully surrendered to his will that i am watching, almost crying, at the things that he feels is best for me. I know that my weakness’ come from him to keep me near him and humble. I know that all the things that have happened in the last year have been to get me here. As eminem says in a song called i am not afraid: ”Ya its been a ride,i guess i had to go to that place to get to this one..” I feel like God has things all figured out for me, and all these things started happening when i said “Okay Lord, what would you have me do?” instead of, “Okay Lord, i need your help with this, and this and this…” And a lot of these things have really been downers ~ at first. A massive computer crash followed by total computer failure has landed me in a computer that has sped up my work load immensely. A fathers heart attack has brought a brother back to christ. Jon losing all that the military promised us has brought us to be able to put him through school ourselves. Some financial issues has brought us to be able to get out of debt and back on top as we are well on our way to being debt free. I cannot name them all.
But here we are at another issue that i feel Gods love surrounding me telling me that this is under control and all things in his will. Our dog is sick. BADLY> he has no blood platelets. (almost none) and has been on steroids. But they seem to be making him more ill. The doc has said that prognosis is not good in most cases such as this and to be prepared. we all feel that he is dying. We have stayed with him all weekend loving him as much as we can, and fitting in each minute left. If God wants him home we are ok with that…but if he lets him stay we will of course be undoubtably grateful and love him until god calls him home. We have another blood test coming tomorrow to see what has happened since meds but all things are unknown still at this point. all i feel is that God loves us, and if Hank is to go ~ it is for all our benefits…and of course i have no clue how from this perspective ~ but am ready and willing to let God be in control of my life as i have done all year. Nothing but the best has come from these drastic events…and i expect nothing but the best from this new position on life.
Thank you God for taking over for us.
Here is a few pics of cooper giving some EXTRA hank love out tonight.
18/07/2010 at 9:36 pm Permalink
I’m sad. Sad for Hank and sad for all those who have been touched by his slobbery kisses. You are right in handing things over to God.
Thank you for the pictures of Coop and Hank. He does not even look sick. But I bet he feels miserable. Poor guy. This makes me wonder if this is something he has had all his life and we just didn’t know about it. You know? Because of all his allergies and funny reactions to things. We are grateful you guys have been able to make your home his. He’s been a lucky dog. Hopefully he’ll stick around.
18/07/2010 at 11:00 pm Permalink
Wow Lindy this is wonderful post! All my love headed that way. Great prespective!
19/07/2010 at 12:40 pm Permalink
i think its been there since day one too…or maybe from the OD ~ but in any event blood draw at 4…
19/07/2010 at 12:50 pm Permalink
Oh I am so sorry! Thinking of you.
19/07/2010 at 5:17 pm Permalink
So sorry to read this! We had to put our doggie down of 16 years in April (the day I went into labor, in fact). It is so hard!
19/07/2010 at 10:16 pm Permalink
Thank you for that perspective honey! Could you cut my brain/heart open and put your strength in me? Please!
20/07/2010 at 9:15 am Permalink
hmmm, its easy to feel when your not standing with the vet talking about brain tumors or heart tumors…none the less ~ i stand by my prognosis…that its hard to see Gods divine purpose but if you believe in him then you will find it and everything will be better than before.
21/07/2010 at 5:26 pm Permalink
Those pictures made me cry! Animals are such amazing creatures! It is so true that if Hank goes he is going “home”. If you dont believe in God, all you have to do is look at animals. You can kick a dog and he will come back and give you kisses all over your face. Truly one of God’s creatures. You are all lucky to have each other. I know its hard now but at least you know you might have a limited time with him. That way you can truly let him know how you feel about him!