stop reading
Yesterday i was given … yet again…another “anonymous” blog comment.
made me immediately do two things…get all worked up because, come on people…IP addresses are not magical, your trackable… and two ~ i deleted the words that i had put up that made others upset.
then i thought about it. its silly! the blog post ONLY had to do with ME, MY son and MY life thats just starting. the anonymous comment told me that i was pointing fingers at my X by writing about how happy i currently am. to that i say BULL. I was told to move on and let it go and allow him to heal. first off i don’t write this blog for anyone but ME. This is my self expression. My way to live in open and loud ~ honesty. My art. My stories. My happinesses and struggles and my photography. I love my job…and i am GREAT at it and i love to show it! i love my life and i LOVE to show it. Nobody needs to read this. i will forever write it. I love to blog. i know that i am not a daily writer but i am always putting out there the things that i feel swelling up inside me. And to the thought that i am not allowing him to heal thats rubbish. He can do as he wishes. He need not read this.
“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us.’ We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There’s nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It’s not just in some of us; it’s in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we’re liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”
I will not quit being fabulous and working MINUTE by MINUTE to live as honestly as i can because some that dont like me want to read my blog. WHY!??? just stop reading.
no injustice to whom wrote me yesterday ~ i know that at one time this person really did love me and was just super worried about my X. I do too…but i cannot live in hiding for him. I did that too long. ~ it just made me really think about the content of the post and what it is i was asked to do…and its wrong. I have just as much right to be happy as all of us. I have as much a right to be out loud in my loves, passions, and fears as all of us…and i will continue to do so.
The world wants to tell me that i am not as valuable or good as i try to be. I AM. I am a great child of God and i will not back down and stop because of any haters.
I am unafraid of the future for the first time in YEARS. Come what may i KNOW that i am doing the best that i can for me and my child and that i will never stop.
YEARS ago i made the mistake of not standing up for myself to a superior when i was told that i was a liar and i faked my religion and on and on… BULL. i dont and i never will. i am done playing small for those around me to feel okay with my life. you dont have to be. i am. God is. and Cooper is.
fine
Lindy,
Much love and blessings this holiday season!
I’ve been in tears reading a glimpse of your story. I’m so thankful “we” found you so long ago, and fell in love with your work, but more with your personality from the get go. It was awesome having you photo Amanda and Ryan’s wedding, and then our babies over the years. You are TRULY a gem in the midst of a dark world. I’m proud of your for overcoming such a dire situation, and demanding better for you and for Coop!
PS. I wish we still lived in Idaho so you could be taking our first “professional” family photos with our family of four!
We’ll see you sometime in the “near” future I hope!
Blessings dear.
Briana
You told me not to long ago “don’t you quit” and I know you never will but I’m telling you now DON’T YOU EVER QUIT.