silence
I just wanted to post a tad bit about why i no longer take comments. i asked the haters to exit from reading my blog…but thinking about it realized that the amount of happiness that i have is hated and envied by those that dont have it…and then i get the hate mail. when you take over your own life and start to live as deliberately as you know how you will receive thoughts from others about how you are not in the right…or you are the inspiration. also when you state how happy or blessed that you are you will have people immediately assume you mean that they are horrible. or if i compliment you in front of her then she will wonder why she was not complimented. PEOPLE….think positivly. when i talk about the blessings that this new life is bringing me i am not talking about anything negative, and i am not implying anything OTHER than I AM SO EFFING BLESSED! i realize that there are negativities about every decision that i make but there is also a SLUG if positives and i am focusing and growing from the positives now. i refuse to live or be stuck in the negatives any longer. they slow me down, hurt my heart, make me a less effective tool for the lord and they dont allow me to shine as a mother, lover and friend. and thats what i want now.
SHINE
so….recap ~
take my words at face value. when i say “i love my monkey and i love to think about how blessed i am for following god and getting a divorce” it means that by doing what i was told to do i am blessed. not that anyone is a bad person or that there is nothing sad about divorce. it means that i am focusing on all the amazing things that has happened for cooper since things shifted and enjoying the bliss that i see in him now. i am enjoying the consistent happy boy that i have again. I am enjoying watching him growing so much that i know happened as a direct result of being brave enough to follow god. Really…i am a honest point plank human being. i cannot live in ANY way that i feel is opposed to gods will or is dishonest. i dont even feel that i can keep things inside me when i feel blessed i need to share it. if my sharing my blessings offends you i am sorry that your in a place where others thriving hurts you and i pray for your strength to get to the place that i am discovering.
As Ani Difranco decided long ago that if she was an HONEST ARTIST that put her life out there to inspire, create or just live honesty then she would not read the things that others wrote about her ever so that she could stay real to herself. if you have something to say about my blog you may email me but if i feel that its going to contain anything mean or negative i will delete it at sight. i will not read them anymore. i am not who you write about ~ i am not who you think you know. i am great. i am a BELOVED daughter of god who in NO WAY deserves these emails and comments…I hope that you dont waste your time reading things you dont like and hating and writing such things that can only bring you down for just writing! I hope that you heal from my divorce too, as i and Cooper are doing. We live and we learn and we try and try and try and when we follow god and our strength allows us to rise above it it is soooo worth it.
“What do you do when someones hating on you????
Simple: Rise above and fly above. Its amazing how your success can intimidate others. People you never expected come out the wood work bringing negative energy…I’m learning to stay neutral and let it all fly.” from: this amazing artist
i really pray for you all.
fine.