YOU know me ~ don’t you?
Talking to Jer until late mornings we tend to talk about everything….sometimes superficial conversations about ice-cream and guns and others its about things that really matter and the other night he hit on a thought i had never really considered until now.
We were talking about how the people around us can sometimes know us better than we do…or be the farthest from you too.
We are our own enemies and our own cheerleaders depending on the minute and sometimes depending upon the chapter we are currently writing in our lives. We see ourselves clean the whole house in a day and say “Lindy your so rocket-juice-badd!” and the the next day we lose our patience and snap at our kid and say “Lindy thats ridiculous parenting! pull your head out!” How do we get to REALLY know US? its tricky because depending on what someone has told someone else about us there are biases and horrible judgments against you so that person will never REALLY know you. This happens. And sometimes, especially for the emotionally abused you will. i did start to think that “everyone around me cant be wrong” But they are!!!! not about you ~ but rather about who is saying things about you to them…they are wrong about THAT person. Try not to fault them because, after all, if someone you loved and trusted came to you saying things about someone you didn’t really know you might take their word too. But remember…if the thought comes to you that so many people CANNOT be wrong think again. I seem to remember a war that proved that point emensly… WWII
There is NOT ONE person on this earth that does not deserve true love and happiness. its our purpose.
Find the people in your life that you TRULY can trust and then do that. TRUST THEM.
This is not to say that you need to find a person that will not say your wrong or need to work on things, you do and are a lot. BUT find the person that will be honest, and love you no matter what and trust them. Jerry shows me the ways that i am beautiful. I feel beautiful next to him, i feel loved, safe. He helps me see where i need to improve and encourages me to do so but never makes me feel belittled. That person who can lift us ALWAYS up is out there for you, be brave, follow your bliss and be patient. they will find you. and it often takes being “wrong” in societies eyes, friends eyes, families…in order to do whats right. but remember
do what is right let the consequence follow!
and this leads me to my next thought.Who is the only person truly deserving 100% trust? your God…his son. They know you!
in him
He loves you, he KNOWS you and will guide you through the storm. he will lead you to the person that can be there for you and help you be there for others.