shot with nikon d300 on a 50 prime lens 1.8 f / 125 speed. iso 250. facing into window! isnt he a doll!

I don’t wanna fall, fall away
I don’t wanna fall, fall away
I’ll keep the lights on in this place
‘Cause I don’t wanna fall, fall away

I disguise
And I will lie
And I will take my precious time
As the days spent away
As I stand in line
And I die as I wait as I wait on my crime
And I’ll try to delay what you make of my life
But I don’t want your way,
I want mine
I’m dying and trying
But believe me I’m fine
But I’m lying,
I’m so very far from fine

And I can feel the pull begin
I feel my conscience wearing thin
And my skin
It will start to break up and fall apart

I don’t wanna fall, fall away
I don’t wanna fall, fall away
I’ll keep the lights on in this place
‘Cause I don’t wanna fall, fall away

Every time I feel selfish ambition
Is taking my vision
And my crime is my sentence
Repentance is taking commision
It’s taking a toll
On my soul
I’m screaming submission and,
I don’t know if I am dying or living
‘Cause I will save face
For name’s sake
Abuse grace
Take aim to obtain a new name
And a newer place
But my name is lame
I can’t walk and I ain’t the same
And my name became
A new destiny to the grave

And I, I can feel the pull begin
Feel my conscience wearing thin
And my skin,
It will start to break up and fall apart

he is too cool. and definitely tooooooo big now.

I am lindy. i am trying to define myself today in everything that i can think of because i might not feel so dizzy or lost if i do.

i value myself as an individual that not one person is but i

i love coffee shops ~ i love baby animals ~ i love call of duty on my xbox at nights ~ i love music ~ i love my son

i love scarfs and hats and am usually in at least one of them

i am a dependable and loving, trusting and trustworthy, fun and spontaneous, exciting and wildly imaginative mommy

i am a loyal, constant, forever unconditionally loving friend

i love las vegas

i love God, and Jesus Christ with all my heart

i love making costumes for cooper ~ i love making costumes for me ~ i love wearing them out in the hills and immaginating all types of aliens to kill

i am a strong, savvy, educated and successful entrepreneur

i am an inspired and unique, intense and passionate artist in almost everything that i do

i love justin bieber ~ pink floyd ~ smashing pumpkins ~ john mayer ~ ani difranco ~ edward sharpe and the magnetic zeros ~ damian rice ~ owl city ~ counting crows ……..

I am not ashamed to love JB

my celebrity boyfriend is Leo DiCaprio (since infancy)

i am lay cay (which is thai…pronounced ‘lie’ then the exact same sound with j at the beginning ‘lie-jie’ like two lie’s one with a j) this means that i have many hearts

its true

i wish i had a life to marry an italian and run off to italy and never return

i wish that i could go back in time and live a life with yanni (not the singer) and travel the world

i wish that i could marry tariq too, and travel the world helping where humanitarian and freedom fighting is needed ~ and yell at the government until blue together

i wish that i had married jon and struggled for years to find balance and happiness in marriage and create the coolest kid on the planet~ wait i did that!!!!

i wish that i had married phil and been struggling artists together ~ and were able to express the music that i feel trapped in me daily

i wish that i were living in SLC working in the church humanitarian center

i wish that i could also marry richard and take care of him making sure he knows he is loved as he doesn’t

i wish that i had married jordan (yes i know i only dated him once) and ran away to canada and learned to bike and run marathons with him weekly

i wish that i had married Michael  and lived in poetry and mountains deeply in new zealand

i wish that i could have another teenage life to start counseling earlier and learn to start healing myself instead of waiting for someone to love me enough

i want a chance to be with the boy i saw at the bus stop and know what kind of person that i would be with him and visa versa

the amazing part of these many hearts of mine is that EACH one is AS STRONG as the others. These are not a guilty wish, and they are definitely not regret! The other amazing this about me is that nobody knows this but jon…and he actually gets it and loves it in me. i want so many lives! its not a choice its a feeling that i have had forever as long as i know

i want to live a life with 12 children and play with them all day long

i want to live selfishly with just cooper and spend each minute and dollar investing in his talent, happiness, confidence, and make sure that he gets everything that i didnt and not getting a lot that i did…and also then the things that i did that are perfect.

i am the type of parent like bryon adams mom and jewels mom…i would sell my home to make sure cooper gets to live up to potential and i believe in him more than anything

i love playing card games

i love this video and watch it often: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=k7X7sZzSXYs and then i pick one and try it

i love life

i love love love sea kayaking to my favorite tunes

i love nostalgia from mine, yours, ANYones life and sometimes go to a nursing home to hear stories of others life

i love eating at Jims and the whole time i ease drop on the grandparents conversations loving every minute

i miss the thai heat

i dont really care what anyone thinks of me ~ notime for this

i dont share my inner feelings often even if i never stop talking

i love to serve others ~ helps me stop whining

i love counseling and i love life coaching and i love tuning into ME more and igniting my soul

i love penpals! i still write and snail mail things off

i love old things and luckily married a machinist who can fix up near anything (like my antique typewriter!)

i would love a time married to dusty traveling in our D110 skating and snowboarding the mountains of alaska raising mountaineers and living off the land

and although i would be fully satisfied getting one life and one shot….i would also be totally bummed ~ laycay

i am unique

i am lindy

and do not value material possessions beyond the comfort they give and could donate anything the lord asked me to anytime

i could do as ani said and ‘go to the river and throw something we couldnt live with out in and start again’

i have great friends that would do for me as i would them anytime needed and able

i dont care if anyone reads this

i have a great life, and i want 30 more         lindy

i forgot to say that the little picture is Leonardo DiCaprio!

I have been married to Jon for 7 years today! and i am itching for more! i am itching to have more babies with him and itching to go on more adventures with him! i am itching to see him graduate! i am itching to see which child we adopt together! i am itching to date him weekly! i am itching to make it another seven years and then write some more about how i am still itching to do it again! i am so in love with him still, we fit each other so well. to all the naysayers that spoke up once we were engaged ~ HA! we won and we rock!!!

also~ to dave and Josh, thank you for supporting us and talking me out of leaving him at mile 3…i am so thankful for your wise words and your love and honesty. i would not have this with out those talks and i am eternally grateful for that!

yahooo for us! seven year itching is AWESOME!

anywho…go look at our family photos!!!!!       http://www.designeatplay.com/?p=1354&cpage=1#comment-39362

And this is his latest carrot i found from today. He will leave behind sprouts of broccoli, cauliflower, bananas…pretty much anything in the drawers of the fridge or fruit bowl. NUMEROUS times a day. glad he eats like a champ…wish he would finish or throw away.